dizzy dreamer 〆
its just whats its meant to be.
Sunday, August 29, 2010, 1:25 AM

its like just one move. everything changes.
its like you know it long ago. and is like you're prepared for it. and it happens. yet it still hits back at you like something unexpected. but its for th better, so time to face up to reality.
be happy yeah? =)

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weird and crazy day.
Friday, August 27, 2010, 12:37 AM

hmmm got photos and stuffs for today's birthday celebration for jac, but ya tmr then post them. uhhhhh. its just weird . wanna post one thing. that is...today my dad's weird sia. ytd just ground me. then couldnt go out. today i just went out with sec sch friends, i come home 11plus, my dad never angry and never say anyt, and my mum said "at least u know ur timing, come home before twelve". like seriously weird sia. now i dunno i am ungrounded alr or what -_- weeeird.
arghhhhhhhh i wanna skate tmrrrrr. and....ya had a really great time with sec sch friends. like bought nonsensical presents for th birthday girl. even went to buy lingerie. but end up th bra one size too big. -_- but like crazy sia. hmmmm, miss hanging out with th skates girls. sigh. keep on never go like really sucks. lately got so many things happen siaaaaaaa. like things are going so fast. too fast. hais. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad happy sad sad .

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broken friendships.
Thursday, August 26, 2010, 1:12 AM

lots of shit happen lately. got grounded. fought with my mum. saw her really go mental for awhile, yet i still continued shouting at her. dunno wtf is wrong with th whole family. or maybe its just me.again. at first wanted go against my dad and just get out of house, go for th planned movie, and then go for skates awhile and reach home 6. end up dunno wtf happen. dunno what happen to me. suddenly damn sleepy, then aiya fuck it la, decided to just be a fucking good girl and stayed at home. need miss skates, again. irritating sia, want to skate, then cannot skate for fucking stupid reasons. end up spent my whole afternoon thinking bout everything's that has been happening; did a damn stupid thing, then was waiting for smt then suddenly fall asleep again. next moment cannot find my phone. lazy to even find it, dunno wth happen. sigh. have been like thinking wth is wrong with my life. is really like..all it took was for me to make one small mistake. really sucks when people assume every single thing about you by judging from what they see on th outside and start assuming and misunderstanding everything else 'bout you. hmm, sometimes i admire you, that you'd just do your own thing and not bother so much bout everything else. sighs. i really think we could have been best friends. so many things changed ever since. like somehow, th old you is lost somewhere. how i wish we were closer like before. hmmm, if only we could spend more time together. if only you knew..i miss you.
some dream: I asked, "What happened to us?" You replied, "Its not me,its not us.Its you."
i just realised i used th word "you" for all th different people i referring to &made until th whole post like no link sia. -_-

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Arrête. C'est l'obtention putain irritant
Thursday, August 19, 2010, 9:04 PM

time to face reality.
sometimes its just so hard to tell.

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just the way i want it to be, or at least its the way i think it should be;
Wednesday, August 18, 2010, 11:01 PM

its just what you see on th outside; you'll never know whats on th inside.
hmm, ok so. apparently things was alright i think. or at least seem alright. or..ok.
it is and shall be alright. ah dunno what i saying alr. ya everything's gonna be okay.
everything is okay. im just really glad, jc not angry alr. glad to have him as a friend:)
thank you, :). ok so...went to surprise weimin in th morning for her birthday. went bb meet j and fiq in afternoon. then go skates. waited for guy to open store to get my deck. damn happy sia when i hold my skateboard. hehehehehe. its been so long! ya. then uh..still failure la. hmm. ok that one nvm. then waited..then meet up with nora n sel. then ya awhile then left alr. trained to th east with j n fiq. damn squeezy sia. alot of stupid things happen lol. then ya. they go chalet. i went to find th guys for bbq . so...skipskipskipskipskipskip. ya then i said sorry to jc. he replied " so long ago alr!" then he seemed all okay O.o so...was kinda shocked. and ya really glad that everything's alright. hehehe. then ya back to th way it was, except for one thing la. hehe but nevermind. then ya;
TO JASMINE&JINGTING&WANCHEW. thank you girls (L).
hmm. end up left early from bbq cos i bringing deck home...so...apparently reached home. dad didnt say anyt!. wheew~. aiya actually sure will got smt he not happy about th next time i go skates one. but ohwell for now, dw think alr. just relieved. heheh. then...i think thats all lol.
girl, i want you to be happy. &i mean my words. (L).

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the moment i put my heart into something, everything will go terribly wrong.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010, 3:27 PM

I fell too deep into a hole and have been trying to get back up for so long..
Someone came and let a rope down, and i have been using that to help me up ever since..
All of a sudden, the rope just broke off..i tried so hard to hold on to something else;
However rocks and stones started to fall onto me so hard..
That i ended up losing my grip and falling back down to the bottom of the hole once again,
Only deeper than before.
Its as though every single bad dream that i have, tells what's about to happen.

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life's never simple. its always complicated. thats why its forever so fucked up; so is falling in love.
12:56 AM


fuck my life. forever this fucked up one. misunderstandings after misunderstandings. it never ends. it sucks. alot. i hate it!. whats wrong with my life. fuck sia. i really wanna break down. cry till i die. i wish this world got no such thing as sadness or pain. i wish everyone can be happy. i hate everything. i hate myself. i hate that i always screw things up. i feel as though everything fucked up starts with me. i can never say or do anything right. every fucking thing is wrong one. like im not meant to be living. i hate my life. i hate myself. hate it hate it hate it!. is it so hard just to keep a friendship? or fall in love? why is it always so wrong. i really hate it!. i dont wanna cry. i dont wanna feel sad. i dont wanna piss ppl off, make ppl angry. i dont want to live in a world with no trust. i hate this stupid world!. its always secrets that leads to lies that leads to misunderstandings that leads to hate that leads to everything single thing to get fucked up. i hate it!. why is it so hard just to be happy!. fuck!.

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i miss you girls alot.
Sunday, August 15, 2010, 9:42 PM


i miss everyone at skates. and ofcourse th girls. every single one of them. miss that really funny adrenaline rush with them.

ok random post.:3

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cos' i know true friends are hard to keep.
9:11 PM

hmm, been grounded for a week alr. sighs, but dad's weird. he says i can go out with my sec school buddies though. hmm. weird weird. but ohwell. tmrw, i think..going out with 2 of themmmmmmmmmmmmmm for a movie that apparently we 3 havent watch lol. despicable me. hope we can laugh like mad like last time. miss them alot sia. like damn long never see them alr. hope everything'd be okay.hmm. anyway i think my brain's working the wrong way. dont like how it works lately. like as though i no control over it liddat. urgh. and..today just did a really stupid thing. haiyaa. sad uhhs :/ like made a friend angry, and make another awkward. sighs. but..yeah. she told me she understood and told me to cheerup. cos she sick of telling me to, haha alright girl. i will cheerup. thank you :)

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sick of feeling this way.
Friday, August 13, 2010, 12:00 PM

why are you like this?!stop it stop it stop it!you fucking bitch!!!
you are making it worst!!!!!!!!FUCK OFF. are u doing it on purpose?

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behind every smile, behind every laughter.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010, 10:40 PM

hahahaahahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
im ggggggggggg crazy sooooooooon.

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behind every masks.
5:53 PM

lies behind every mask. lies after lies. the fucking truth hurts huh. the truth kills, thats why you lie and lie and lie until your whole life becomes a fucking lie.

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every single day; im trying.
Sunday, August 8, 2010, 5:21 PM

no matter how much im tempted to, i have to fight against it. cos i know i'll only make things worst if i let it happen again. move on. move on..


hmm, well i dont think i stand any chance with anyone..its like i keep falling for the wrong person. feel like saying something out but not sure how to put it.
A has been in love with B. but A&B both knows we're no longer possible. B always made th first move to let go. this time it's A's turn, but B's making it kind of difficult. A feels as though B wants to get back together and finally give A an answer and try over again. B seems to be moving on with life. A has been trying to show B the same thing. A has been thinking alot about C, but knows there's no chance with C cos A feels not good enough for C and that C wouldnt like A cos is A is most probably not C's type. D seems to want to change and has feelings for A. But A made it pretty clear to D that A likes someone(C). but D's still trying. A is all messed up with every single thing. A treats D like a bro. and has been trying like crazy to forget and let go of B. A still thinks of B sometimes. A thinks of C quite alot now, but has been spending lesser time tgt with C and feels its getting more and more impossible to be tgt. A has been hanging out alot with D, but is unable to give back the same feeling. A feels like she has never fallen for the right person before. A feels like giving up on falling in love all over again.

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