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Monday, August 24, 2015, 12:41 PM
How can anyone not love architecture...I am literally tearing up after coming across a photo where students at UT are presenting their amazing boards and models in an exhibition. I cannot even remember the last time I felt a sense of fulfilment in completing a board/model/submission and proudly presenting it during my critique anymore...End products that made all my sleepless nights and the days where I had to push myself all worth it...Just two weeks into the new semester and I am already finding myself depressed and not happy at all. Smoked through my first design studio, missed the second, failed to finish laying out everything properly for presentation on the third, worked my ass off for the fourth and ended up leaving school without presenting my stuff because I felt it was shit work, and here I am today, all ready to give studio a miss because I spent my entire weekends trying to get every fucking thing perfect and now I have barely 50% of the required work done and of course 0% on my model.
Who am I kidding.
This is my 6th year and yes, I suck at architecture. What is the bloody point of me burning the midnight oil, working towards every design studio but end up not turning up because I feel I have not done enough or anything up to the standards I expect myself to put out there?
I never said this out loud but, the truth is, I never really wanted to work in a firm over any one of my term breaks because I honestly think I am not good enough to work in one yet and I will just suck as an intern there whatsoever and I did not want to have to disappoint anyone during my holidays cause I am already doing that every other time during school semesters
Like come on? I am 22 and no one at my age does this kind of nonsense any more man. When am I ever going to get it through my thick skull that I am in school to learn how to learn?
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hello i am qy 〆 ヒスイ sleep paralysis, wretches & sketches しめ
i study the making of places where people spend their lives
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