99% sure I'm not going to be able to keep it up but I'll try to jot down some of this shit to remind myself here.

I need to regularly go for my mt lessons at Evolve. Not just cause I've paid a fixed payment for it, not just cause mt is cool and all, not cause I want to know how to fight (anyone should be smart enough to know it's never gonna work in a real life situation), but because I truly liked it and it's great for working out my body and literally releasing stress. I cannot emphasise how awesome I feel after the sessions every time. Oh and that cold shower right after... (paying for dem facilities man). Have I mentioned this before, I get really angry when I don't exercise. As much as I am not that much of an athlete. 

Okay I really have so much I want to do/achieve/whatever that I am actually lazy to even type it out now after that paragraph above lol. But seriously. I guess I'll just start off with that on Monday since, if I can make time for mt, it probably means my time management is getting better, well of course without forsaking my priorities here - studying architecture in freaking uni. (I don't hate it I just don't get why it doesn't seem to be working out for me. Plus I am still struggling to figure out how the hell I got through to uni with it and why the hell am I not making it worth.)

I hate having to say this to myself so many god damn times. I need to wake up. Everything is just so damn wrong... I hate how it is so difficult for me to change for the better. It's like I know what's up and all but my I-don't-give-a-damn attitude is just getting from bad to worse. No, worse to worser (it was a legit word long time ago apparently). 

This sounds so dramatic but ugh trust me I hate how it is so. Going to end it off here cause I just realised how I am not writing in proper English again. Damn it how do others do it, I'm just, I'm not getting it, at all.