dizzy dreamer 〆
Failure
Wednesday, September 18, 2013, 8:04 PM
I really...I am scared..I just might fail my first semester in Uni...5% Attendance - Missed more than 3 tutorials and failed to complete the assignments for each.
25% Introductory project - Missed out on assignments, tutor said conduct was "so-so" only.
25% Intermediate project - This one. this current one that I really just can't get anything out for. and I did not even achieve what my tutor expected of me. "Conduct in class is the worst, it's unacceptable."
I am left with...
5% Portfolio - It has been the one thing that I feel has gotten me this far. whether in poly when I did not complete assignments, yet have these in hand. And, for uni interview. (I am assuming so as they browsed through my portfolio folder.) If these are considered right from the start then I am screwed, otherwise it may save me. But I have to ace this with my final project.
40% Final Project - This, I have to ace. I have to make sure I make the change and make this project work out and I am hoping it is do-able. I am so disappointed with myself realising how it would have been manageable for me to do well in both the intro and intermediate project had I just managed my time better, and not avoid my tutor and attend all tutorials and complete all assignments. (On the side note, someone remind me not to go for an extra module that needs so much preparatory work.)
If I gauge my tutor's comment on my intro project, I am assuming maybe 10% to 12.5%? 1% attendance for sure. Best would probably be 30% for final if I could manage. And I am really hoping portfolio isn't strict then that might give me 4%? This adds up to...less than 50%??? I am screwed hmm. As long as I skip this intermediate project I am dead. Not to mention the fact that, if my tutor gives up on me, its a fat hope to think I can even get to 30% for my final project.
And yet again, I am still too much a coward to face anybody tomorrow for submission and critique with the guests etc..
I know fault's completely on my side and it's my choice...I chose this...It's too much to ask for but, can someone please tell me I am going to be okay...I just have to be more disciplined and really make this change...
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hello i am qy 〆 ヒスイ sleep paralysis, wretches & sketches しめ
i study the making of places where people spend their lives
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