dizzy dreamer 〆
It just feels like I'm losing yourself...
Monday, July 1, 2013, 4:46 PM
I don't know why I keep doing this, keep letting all these bullshit happen all over again. All these...unnecessary things...I just feel so stupid...Like all my other actions just don't quite add up to how I'm starting my university course in August. Can see why my parents don't seem to be proud of me getting into one. Hmm.I just feel like they're the cause of me making the wrong choices cause I'm just so afraid to grow up. They've been so overprotective that I'd jump at a shot of freedom and end up not knowing my limits or something. And...whenever there's a choice between something serious and long term and good for me, or the fun and dangerous and wrong thing that may not last, I'd still go for the latter because my parents makes me feel like I can't handle anything and...I don't even know man. I'm gonna be 21 next year, hopefully someone can just pop into my life and help me out a little.
Sounds so lame but I guess I do need to mature up a little huh...Sometimes, it's not that I don't know stuffs or that I don't know what's going on, but...I just don't want to know it, I don't want to face it. I'd rather be the idiot to my parents so they can just scold me for things now. Meh growing up and handling all the heavy responsibilities is really freaking me out...ughhhhh.
K actually the entire post sounds damn lame. alisestjeihgsefncwerkewmararjsexrlxserlewireiwclhkfkahds
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hello i am qy 〆 ヒスイ sleep paralysis, wretches & sketches しめ
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