dizzy dreamer 〆
what if I really can't make it in life?
Monday, January 28, 2013, 7:48 PM
I...-may not be able to find a job to provide for myself, let alone my parents.
-may not be able to earn enough each day for my meals, let alone give my parents the treat every weekends.
-may not even be able to get my own house or pay for the bills, let alone support my parents'.
-may not be able to fulfil my dreams...
-may just disappoint my dad...my mum...my sis...and they will all be embarrassed if my relatives mention bout this...
I can't help but look back...maybe I really should have gone for the JC route, I'd be like my cousins - already in Singapore Universities. Sigh. But I have to admit, I still love architecture man.
Why did I have to fail this final year?! ughhhhhhhhhhhh what am I gonna do now...
If I can repeat year 3, I would. Never repeated years before, but I'm honestly not afraid.
The thing is I think they wouldn't allow that. How 'bout go to a JC? take away 2 years...just to..
get into the uni. Then study architecture? Then what... go out to work...
Should I continue in this line? Is this what's right for me? Again...I mentioned 'bout dreams..
What are my dreams man. I have no idea...
I have so many interests in different things. But parents always nag at me at how I just...
do things to like 50-60% and then just "give it up".
If I continue this way in life, I won't be able to get anywhere man.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Can't stop breaking down. My texting buddy is the only one keeping me sane right now. But...
I'm getting distracted at the same time. Sighhhhh.
God, what to do what to do? :( Please help me help myself up...
I don't want to give up but I keep failing to bring myself back up.
It's down to < 1 week. Just...kill me now la.
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hello i am qy 〆 ヒスイ sleep paralysis, wretches & sketches しめ
i study the making of places where people spend their lives
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