dizzy dreamer 〆
im fine: にんたい
Wednesday, November 30, 2011, 9:11 PM
" Don't back a #Gemini to a corner, You won't like it. "Labels: hehh.
mmm. ive got a confession. im super afraid of dentists.
Thursday, November 24, 2011, 9:24 PM
mmm seriously.. i've been thinking bout getting braces since sec 3 i think. just everytime i see my teeth is like.. still okay. then just cancelled that thought. then... ive been noticing in these years. that particular ONE tooth. it seems to be pushing my front two teeth and the rest towards th right? getting abit worrying. and ive not seen the dentist for ages. seriously i think the person im most afraid to see is. a dentist. =_= my god. i should go asking bout my wisdom tooth too... and clean my teeth. mmmmm. i think my phobia came about ever since...sec 1/2? i had to pluck 3 or 4 teeth at one go. got so dizzy back home that i just fainted on the floor th moment i stepped into the house. -_- okay anyway.................really dk should or not. i dm the food lah. im super okay with clear soup and soft food. just that its gonna hurt right? this is not my worry. But.
im super worried it screws up somewhere during the idk how many years of it. need go tightening, retainers take out put in etc etc.
ok anyway i just pray hard that things will be just fine if i really do decide to get em.
*fingers crossed*
Labels: scary monsters and 'dentists'
...
Wednesday, November 23, 2011, 8:13 PM
so thats what it is still?its always bout that...
and btw "the survey is now closed. thank you for your interest."
Fuck You lah.
Labels: ccccccccbbb.
人生には浮き沈みがあるものだ。
Tuesday, November 22, 2011, 9:14 PM
どうして...私は気持ちはもう本物だかわからない。
Labels: とてもがっかりする。
:'(
Monday, November 21, 2011, 9:45 PM
i dont know why im tearing again :'(i need to meet up with that someone who can make me not feel this way at all more.
no i should meet up with that someone to do work.
wait where is that someone right now?
sigh...
im feeling like crap now
and i cant do my work th whole of last week cos of the ongoing headache that wont go away.
no i dont even have the motivation to do work.
or at the least ive been planning out what i need and want to do,
but everytime i try and start i just...
idk i just cant start.
super unproductive days..
god, i want to look forward to a good weekend and be prepared for my next week, then i thinkk. its holidays. so pleeeeease i really hope i can pick myself up and push harder :(((((
i just want to do it to my best and not waste everything away :(
i cant think bout other stuffs during the holidays. i dont mind taking th whole holidays just to think bout all these.. i just dont want to waste everything ive already worked on away..
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omg this feeling is horrible..
Labels: ankle and shoulder acting up..ughh
memories, memories.
Sunday, November 20, 2011, 12:37 AM
:'(Labels: since...
happy birthday, ... friend?...
12:07 AM
hmm so you're 18 now mm. so yeah guess you're ready to get a license and a car?:)mm..its been a good one and a half year knowing you...
and of course not forgettin' the first time i saw you at the auditorium and eventually gettin' to know you and Pascal, in the same class :D
having known you... i kinda changed quite a bit. Especially on the part which...
caused you and Pascal to run into the girls' toilet, thanks :3
mm guess i can say i got frekaed out by your laughter after a few weeks of knowing you, but eventually kinda got used to it, haha.
And you've been a great friend anw ever since..
Mm guess a good and bad on to one of your character...
You're really straightforward with your words, okay, sort of.
So i kinda got "shot down" a few times by your words, but it was alright i guess?
Got to sorta know like a "real" opinion on things? mm and yeah all these times...
I pretty much think you're an asshole. But eventually gettin' to know you a littttle more,
did let me see other sides of you uh.. Hehe and you're kiiiinda caring eh..
Just in a different manner? I remember your asked me if i was dead yet, the other time just after the submission's deadline. So... yeah i swear i felt like hitting your but of course,
im more than glad that you texted. Mm so yeah oh,
and i think the happiest i've ever seen you, was when you brought us to the Luge.
Thanks for that too. Had one of the best nights ever. And mm..
Guess i miss those times too much. But ohwell,
mm anyway guess you're doing well now, so... Still,
good luck with everything. Health, studies etc etc uh.
and,
Happy Birthday to you,
have a good one and enjoy your day! :>
as expected from you now, it was just a one word reply from ya.
but guess thats more than enough now, its been all too long since ive gotten a text reply from you. so yeah :')
しつぼうする
Thursday, November 17, 2011, 8:53 PM
あなたは何をしたいですか？
それを停止し...
てください...
それはそんなに痛い...
私はあなたがいなくて寂しいです...
Labels: 心臓の痛み..
can we?
4:50 PM
mmm. if we put everything aside, of course we can.but can we?
it hurt, that's why i left.
hmm.. have been going out to walk alone..alot.
just to think.
mm.
sudden random thoughts:
"Mei Ling and Roger".
Labels: :(
What now? :(
8:50 AM
I got what wrong then say luh.. Why r we even communicating this... Everyday also got misunderstanding seriously feels like crap..
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Labels: sigh tiring uh.
"if they don't it means they dont care:)"
Wednesday, November 16, 2011, 8:56 PM
what do you mean? does this mean you dont care about this?..
then whats all this about...
i dont want it if its not true..if its not real...
Labels: .........
its been so long.
8:11 PM
oops. today ...hehe got abit paiseh,
but quite happy...
its better than nothing uh.
Labels: for the 'first' time
...
1:12 PM
Instead of thinking what a TF (true friend) wont do, why dont you think of what a TF (true friend) will do for you. ? and btw its not called emo. Its just being in deeper thoughts to think about stuffs. True enough. If either of us dont give a fuck, we'd be happier. But then again with th situation now, it'd prolly end up as just a "friendship". Im just hoping its what I think it is, that its cos both sides are trying that this is hurting.
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Labels: cant you see wont you wont you try to see im trying too
if you had taken notice, you would have known earlier.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011, 7:58 PM
we talked a little more today.Labels: ismhsm.
ive realised so much.
2:20 PM
i miss the guy that made me tear and smile today.
simply seeing him laughing and smiling and having fun and.. being happy.
i miss being good friends so much. i miss everything we could've had,
if not for that one particular character.. and for the circle of friends.
God, why didnt this work out?
i dont know.. but this hurts. so much.
so much more.
maybe cos he was the first i knew ever since....and made me feel this way,
i miss you so much but you'll never know and you wont care anym
we wont even talk anymore cos you cant even be bothered to.
you avoid me as much as you can, i swear its killing me even more than anything else.
you must be hating on the fact on me being emo and all.
which part of "im justthinking" do you guys not understand.
why of all person, you?
who cared.
so much,
so so so much.. before..
my god.. this hurts..
Labels: please stop being this way :'(
48hours without sleep.
Monday, November 14, 2011, 12:01 AM
this is exactly what happens during the night before submissions. confirm more than 48hours w/o sleep one. =_= anyway...i forgot to print one important plan . fuuuuu. zzz. should go all th way to print tmr not huh. hmm. i am trying my best to cope with this.
thanks ah...
this year.. like try and avoid getting too deep with b/g-rls stuffs.
end up tio hit by friendships. like fuuuuuuu. really fuuuu.
disappointed>sad>giveup>dontwantthink>idontcare.
tsch. who am i kidding..
it takes two hands to clap. im still trying to figure out all the wrongs on my side.
i know things wont get better. kinda lost that hope already. i honestly hope you are happy.
happy with everything you've got now.
god please..i honestly hope this is th last of it.
sigh.
i really very sad siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
:(
ok wait, actually if theres more shit to come,
god, please just make me stronger :<
Labels: :((((((((((((((((((
3AM IN THE MORNING CADDING
Friday, November 11, 2011, 3:15 AM
Listening to : The Wind Blows - AAR (Skrillex cover)
like dont have any drop..
but i think.. nice eh o.o"
omg cannot fall asleep neeed concentrate T_T
Labels: omg i can feel the coffee being drained off meeeee
to the person who has been there for me these few weeks (II)
Thursday, November 10, 2011, 11:18 PM
hmm, thank you so..so much for those two long messages.cant thank you enough for taking the time to understand that,
and im still sorry things turned out this way.
Like i already said, you Are my friend.
If you need a shoulder to lean on, im still gonna be here.
:')
k back to work. ohmaigawd 24hours 30mins to submissions. T_T
Labels: P.S. you're a good person too.
limits...
8:59 PM
it just feels like...i need to really cry everything out.
ugh feeling like a complete idiot..
35hours 59mins to submissions.
i just need to finish everything and its prolly gonna help me get a good sleep.
need attend family stuffs again this weekend.
god please give me the strength to pull through this...
"N-n-now that that dont kill me,
Can only make me stronger."
Labels: -.=
why isnt anything getting any better?
8:28 PM
i know sounds really silly uh
but reading manga and watching anime really helps me forget all th other stuffs.
like really effectively. -_-
tho its only temporary.. ohwell.
so glad i bought the 56-books collection of Inuyasha.
worth the moneyyy.
i cant give up now.
Labels: i just need..someone now.
try harder try harder try harder
Wednesday, November 9, 2011, 9:07 PM
so all in all, what you want is still to win me, is just to be the best, or to be the better one.am i all but such a friend to you all these while? things got so diff ever since then.
is our friendship that fragile. like all depending on our grades? :(
sad to know this is the motivation that's pushing you on.
k fuuuuuuuu. forget everything forget everything forget evrything
juzzz fuck ittt. im so glad my blog is not a public kind of blog.
ughhhh today is so.. ughhhh knnbccb la fuckkkkkkk everything.
i want restart button can not. or like refresh or like delete history button. anything also can.
feeling sick mentally. ugh
kao eh cant even do my work today. fuck lah.
ughhhhhhh.
ughhhhhhh!!!!!!!
en thfiehwgs fhkjn esfjk
ughhh waddafuckkkk zzzzzzzzzzzzz feeling like crap now.
cccccccb submission this fri why th fuck i not doing work,
best part im th reason uve got motivation to do work just to be th better one
ahhhhhhhh chhheeeeebs.
mind over body.
no wait, now is mind over.. mind? ah shit la
dk wtf i saying.
fuck la fuck la fuck la.
ugghhhhh need tahan..
Labels: cannot lose controllll
Kaew & Tomo
Tuesday, November 8, 2011, 9:03 PM
these two's mv has been cheering me up... -_-Labels: you got me started with thai..
to the person who has been there for me these few weeks.
Monday, November 7, 2011, 9:36 PM
you've given me every reason to regret this,but there's still that one reason that i knew that lead us to this.
thank you for giving your all,
and i'd agree with those last three posts; on me being ... 'jahat' ??? dk if thats th word.
but none of what ive said was a lie,
it's just that i realised i cant go on any further in this state im in,
sorry.
Labels: guide.
random post.
8:21 PM
FFK kinda reminds me of.. us three. -_-Labels: sigh until old already luhhh...
i wonder if this is starting afresh.
7:54 PM
like..it's as if all ties has been cut.or ties that needed to be cut for now..has already been cut..
hope things will work out soon.
now seems like a time where less things would be known to me.
time to focus on my own self-improvement, i guess.
nearly made a 'mistake' today tho.
Labels: some things just never change.
till then, i hope to be a better someone.
Saturday, November 5, 2011, 12:26 AM
To everyone i meet, have met, will meet;Thank you.
For everything that is happening, has happened, will happen;
in my life.
Labels: because
#foreverlikethis.
Thursday, November 3, 2011, 7:02 PM
#nowplaying รักไม่ต้องการเวลา (OST. กวน มึน โฮ)
[mv]- เจ็บเพราะเขาเหงาเพราะเธอ Four-Mod
Four & Mod Mv รักได้รักไปแล้ว
similarly to kpop, idk what they saying but i just listen ~_~
mm..
even after so long,
even after every single 'arguments',
i still think bout it.. i just wonder if this time would be the last of it..
either way it just feels to me..like i'll always have this..'feeling'..or 'thought'..
whether as..
a crush i was so shy to be around with,
a best friend that i'd be myself with,
or ..just a friend that i'd still want to meet..
i still think bout you.
the same way ive been doing..
ever since i made my mind not to let myself have anything to do with you anymore.
haha what a big lie to myself.
you know.. its not..a.."liking you" kind of feeling ?
its..maybe not a.."missing you" kind of thing ?
just.. i cant help it,
but at times, i'd just stop..
and think back.
so much changed.
Labels: what happened
adapt. #geminis
Wednesday, November 2, 2011, 5:58 PM
#randomthoughts (1)idk why im suddenly thinking bout collarbones...
ok anw, mmm well right in the first place, i wasnt expecting to be having th same gems as you.
so i was thinking, if its a good thing(that we may talk) or a bad thing(that i'd be seeing you ignoring me the whole 3hours). so...didnt go that well. hmm
i honestly wonder why u have to completely ignore my texts tho.
ohwell.
apart from that.. ive got to say.
thanks to all that's happening now,
im able to realise many things.
and im glad for being who i am.
#randomthoughts. (2)
for some reason im happy with the way ive been brought up by my parents.
lovemafamily.
#randomthoughts (3)
sometimes i wonder, why got so many religions.
isnt there like, only one God..
i wonder what it'd be like if all the religions could come together and form one..
ok got abit the weird.
i swear my craving for bergedil just went from 75% to 90% :(
Labels: i swear it feels like everyday is a wasted day zzzz
happy birthday to ya
Tuesday, November 1, 2011, 8:31 PM
hmm im not exactly sure.. what's going on..between us now..
but i do miss the times when we were close and we could talk just bout anything
and hang out altogether and have so, so soo much fun together.
those days when, i'd get home everyday with a smile.
miss days in school where they were always full of laughter.
anyway, happy birthday bro.
im sure you loved the present and, prolly the awesome dinner too.
wish you the best in everything!
Labels: we are(were) still friends afterall.
#sotrue.
8:29 PM
http://kentridgecommon.com/?p=13860Labels: agree a hundred percent
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