dizzy dreamer 〆
uhhh.
Monday, June 20, 2011, 8:29 PM

lol OK SERIOUSLY. i needa cheerup man. no one's gonna really be there. i've gotta stand up on my own and stay strong uh! hahaha this is sort of.. embarassing but. watching taemin makes me happy. never fails to cheer me up :>

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ohwell.
8:24 PM

haha. whats with my previous post.. so..emotional like that. reminds me so much of my past.
hmm having even thought back.. i guess i really dont deserve to even feel anything more than just friends.. for anyone else, or even be with someone new right? haha...
i just hope everything's gonna be okay. main thing now is studies uh. i have so much to catch up on. architecture is literally like piles and piles of work waiting to be finished. but no matter how much you do, that'd still be so much left to do.

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"Dont cry because its over, smile because it happened."
7:41 PM

thank you..for your birthday wish. and im very sorry.
i never expected that'd i'd be even writing a post regarding this again.
i just got so stressed bout work. and..i suddenly re-read "Koizora (sky of love)".
just nice my ipod was playing "Heavenly days - Aragaki Yui".
sigh. i couldnt help it. i read finish everything.
i even stupidly went to read your old blog, our blog that can never be deleted cause you forgot the password. you even forgot that you did not tell it to me. haha.
memories just kept flowing back and i..couldnt help it...and..just..teared.
i dont want my last memory of you to be filled with guilt.
although..you're none other..than just a friend to me now.
i never knew how you did it last time, doing all those things.. and leaving things that way..
i guess i do now. i never thought it'd be this hard.
but it doesnt matter. i guess all these was meant to happen.
everytime my ipod plays the songs we used to both listen to,
i'd definitely reminisce bout us. but i guess those are just memories i wont ever forget.
ive been through my worst times. but most importantly.. i was happy.
im sorry i did that infront of you that day. ive quit it already. i want you to know that.
ever since that last time we met, ive been away from all those already, dont worry.. :)
but.. lets keep things this way. please dont hope for anything from me anymore..
please move on. like you've said. you saw that..im happy now.
many things happened ever since.. i've already taken the step to move forward.
i have my friends and family around me. and i am happy.
i've met people that i can be happy around as well. so dont hold on anymore.
its been..over 3 years hmm..
i just wanna apologise for not being able to meet you one more time to say im sorry..

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i have to set my mind straight on just one thing, just one.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011, 8:23 PM



its just too many things to handle all at once.

i wish i have someone now. just someone i can go to.

someone who can listen to me pour out all sorts of things to.

someone i can just be myself to.

someone who can cheer me up with just the silliest things.

someone who can hold me tightly and tell me everythings' alright.

where's that someone :(


im sorry. i didnt initiate anything actually. this is how it was supposed to be 2 years ago.

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Best day ever,
Thursday, June 9, 2011, 1:23 AM

you know that feeling of having enjoyed your day with fawesome friends, and coming back home to seeing your parents' smiles? its like the best feeling. EVER. no need for any special occasion, just a moment to treasure, a day to remember :>

so..yup. ok actually this day didnt start of good at all. been so busy with project that ive not even have the time to blog, nor go out or anything. so yeah. today thought need to submit my re-edited work by 5pm.(or maybe there really was a need), either way im not gonna bother already. shall just use my previous design even if im getting badly graded for it. shall just improve on it this holiday and edit and get everything right before school reopens where there will be a whole other load of submissions. OK so enough of this shit.

then.. yeah rushed out of house to meet up with pascal mark weimin vidette ericj ericnoble wilson and david. hmm sadly, hamdan couldnt make it.. and jac didnt reply :/ ohwell. so yeah met them at NYNY @citylink hehehe. they ordered the HUGE burger, where 4 of the guys shared. it had a hell lot of fries too. um.. mark vidette weimin and i order spaghetti.. and.. yeah thee was an extra fish&chips that we shared out. oh and there were like two huge mugs of rootbeer float!!! hahaha. ok anyway was watching wilson ericnoble ericjosua n pascal eat their 1/4 burgers which is like twice a normal burger. ok anyway...idk i kinda ate finish first.. so i was..kinda quiet all th way..watching all of them.. absorbing their conversations bit by bit.. seeing that we've not met and had a get together apart from school.. for awhile alr. and it was the first time noble wilson and david joined us! haha

ok after that.. was supposed to go raffles city to get the card. but was alr 9.30 so i thought forget it. th shop may be closed. ended up passed by 'Prints' shop at citylink! so got a small card instead :) haha hope it goes well the the present! andd.... hope she'll like the present! :D

ok so yeah th guys waited :D:D hahah then we headed to marina square to bowl! LOL. been awhile since i bowled! haha. ok so... yeah we had two games! i swear i was having so much fun watching them all play and being idiotic(oops) and like just being themselves and like really happy and all. we were like all smiles! :D and i saw th other side of david and even got to know him more! hahaha in school like quitet onlehhh haha OH and eric.noble scored 5 strikes in a row on the last game! awesome or whuttttttt. hahaha by the time we finished.. was like... around 1130? i think!. return everything then walked out and all. some were thinking of cabbing home but end up we decided to chiong for last train :) ericj's friend sent him home though!. then.. yeah we started running from the end of marina square all the way cross the roads..to cityhall and down like 2 flights of escalators.. run again through the link to the mrt.. then run all the way.. then up slopes.. and run again.. then up the escaltors to raffles city's entrance then down th escaltors to the mrt again. hahaa crazy or whuttttttttt. but honestly. it was the best 13mins rush for last train ever.

went home..took last train..then waited for last bus 1240. took it and headed home. daddy was waiting at void deck for me and i saw him when i alighted at the bus stop. haha. was kinda worried he might scold. but.. nooope. i was all smiles n i just blurted how much i enjoyed today and he smiled at me as i talked till we reached home. then mommy came out to see im home then they both went to sleep. cute ah.? hahahahha. OK and...anyway. just wanna say it again. today started of badly. but ended off great :D and im happy we had this gathering! and. to pascal, im sure even if we dont meet alot..we're gonna be ok! the moment we all meet up we'll just have fun and be happy! just like today!! hahaha.

ok so.. yup i needa go sleep soon. tmr need to be up early to go over to gramma's house at toapayoh! then i guess sis and i heading to orchard to shop.. and yup gonna meet inah there to pass her the present! :3 OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY INAH. hope you'll enjoy your dayyyyy and be happy! =)

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