honestly dont have time for anything/ anyone else outside architecture. have not even gone out with family for weeks. finally went out for at least a decent dinner today! after ytd's model submission. hmm. really have to thank mommy for staying up with me till 3am the past 2days.. until i feel really bad and told her to go and sleep. haha. hmm..so..feeling guilty for taking a break now. sigh. when will this end? we literally have work to do every single day. there's no stop at all. even when the holidays come. its a 2 week break. where i have so much i need to catch up on. sigh. been on the verge of giving up so much already. i dont know how did i wake up the next day to go on with it. hope i can continue to have that strength to stay on. and grow stronger each time. i know i will regret if i leave architecture because its something.. i actually do love. its just so tough.. cant wait to really take a break. where.. i dont actually have to feel like im carry a huge load on my bag. like now.. knowing each time i rest, i have alot more work and lesser time to finish em.. like everytime..i know i should be dedicating my time to finish my work.. so rushed with em that i dont even have to to refine them. all i gave is all i could do by that timing..

just like you, i wish i have that someone too. i dont know but. i miss having that someone to.. turn to.. to go to.. each time i dont feel okay.