idk why i chose this photo, so unglam, but i just thought.i looked happy.

i never thought you were someone who'd erase memories. i didnt notice you've actually deleted me away from fb. but i guess this is best for us. i know your life will be better without me. im sorry for having ignored you, but i never regretted making that choice. now, you're just a memory, a memory i'd never forget.

hmm. so. thursdays huh. apparently, 2 weeks ago vidette encountered something similar, last week, it was weimin. this week it was me. our studio's toilet. hmm. vidette heard flushing sound when no one inside. weimin heard toilet roll sound when no one inside. i heard someone call my name and i saw a shadow entering the cubicle next to me. i came out, no one. fml. k enough of that.

so..ive been seeing so many friends together with someone they're happy with. i cant help but feel happy for them, yet at the same time, i envy them, cos i dont know if im able to feel that way again. even my close bro has found someone im pretty sure he will be happy with.. (: lately..ive also seen friends who've left someone whom had once made them happy, ive seen how fuckedup things can be. it felt like so much has happen this week and im having a really hard time trying to absorb everything.

somehow im starting to relieve that feeling again. but will it end up backfiring on me?

we've been close friends for over a year, and we've been good that way. im really worried we might screw this friendship but im happy this way now. but what i dont get is why you always make me doubt your words and actions. its like. simply put it. "you give me one, i take another, you take back both"sigh. i really hope everything will be okay.

and fuck this post was supposed to be sent ytd. thanks to my grandma and my sis's big mouth. already not in the mood for anything still had to go through shit last night. irritating as hell and im currently not allowed to use my labtop for now. it was on a risk of being hammered by my dad again. last night was fucked up as hell, but lucky i managed to just have a good sleep cos of the friends around me. thankyou.

okay back to today. shitload of work to do. need chiong and finish everything up. needa keep next week at least by friday, free. movie with brian! if not i owe him meal sia haha. kbye.