dizzy dreamer 〆
still grounded.
Friday, October 22, 2010, 12:04 PM

its just a matter of time;
wish you're here with me right now.
i miss you.

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one step at a time
Thursday, October 21, 2010, 9:44 PM

ok im gonna make this real short. boy, dont think too much yeah? just be happy and go with th flow , like take things a day at a time la. dont think so far luh. like this few days kinda got so awkward . then just now although only met for awhile and held hands i alr damn happy . hehehe. cant wait for wednesday!. (L)

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i want to run away.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010, 9:53 PM

ytd started of alright.. didnt end very well. but overall was fine. just did stupid things and worried someone. sighs, today started off fine as well. gems was weird. eventually didnt go very well. cut it short, i reach home at an early 8pm. all i replied to my mum when she last min tell me no dinner for me and ask me ownself buy was "shit la, i should have ate with my friends". then when i reach home, she slap me. dad not happy , saying its not enough to teach me what is respect to them. they hit again. fuck la. no matter what i do also not good enough. why my parents call me a useless daughter, and a hopeless bitch! wtf i did wrong!. fuck la i want run away. but need think so many things. i feel guilty also. hais dunno what i want. wish J's here beside me now for me to hug so tightly to sleep.

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finally done with gems.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010, 11:05 PM

alex evans
i dont know who
christopher james
hmmm so finally decided on gems ? haha hope eventually wont have anything that'll make me regret taking it. alright then, have to thank my dad for partially helping me by convincing me into taking that module haha. and.i dunno why suddenly went to see emo hair again. jealous sia. their hair always style till so nice and their hair texture like awesome uh . hehehe alexevan's eyes, then i dont know who th nose and hair, and christopherjames's smile (L)! come to think of it he looks like moose from stepup. or maybe not. lol. ok now..off to play sims3 and i didnt know quite a few of my poly friends play it too ! like so fun to build our own house uh :D

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Monday!
Sunday, October 10, 2010, 8:40 PM





ok suddenly went back to watching anime for awhile. 純情ロマンチカ! yaoi♥!
and.. tomorrow, if everything goes as plan.. im meeting J in th morning! finally after not seeing him for more than 10days! haha .i like damn excited uh! . i wonder what's th surprise :3

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gems gems gems
1:20 AM

i damn worried i take th wrong gems and regret taking it! i scared fail gems need retake all th shit sia. urghghghghgh . so many choices to choose . thought i decided now again cant decide. hate this character of mine sia. always cant make decision. arghghghg forget this for now, th only good thing that happened today is that J's back in s'pore alr :)

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soooooooooooooooon.
Saturday, October 9, 2010, 3:35 PM

J going board th flight i think. then he gonna reach s'pore like 12am .. th flight why so long one sia. tsk lololololol. then he come back can chat on phone alr :D monday going out with J jc and haikel also! HEHEHHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE getting our baggu duck bags FINALLY !!! :D

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24hours more!
Friday, October 8, 2010, 11:57 PM

hahahhahahhahhahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahahhahahaha. i dont know why, today feels like a good day -_- i went out in th afternoon to meet jc and hl. like damnfuckinglong never go out with them . last time always hang out with them and bin one, and a few other guys. i dunno why but i feel kinda happy having had dinner with them and ..for waiting for th superduper long queue at iluma's koi today hahha. so.. it felt kinda different buying koi there without J. now then i realise everytime i go there buy koi is cfm with him one lol. hehehhehehhehehehehehhehehhehehehe 24hours then he'll be back in s'pore...discuss what gems to take... stupid la. my sec sch friends in sp all taking psychology (sci&tech category) this yr. then poly one all taking french/german(arts&humanities) . crapppppppp . which should i take! OHYA then still got. after buying koi went to take train with jc to dover to skate :D like so long never see nora , had a long hug :3 hahahha. she like so happy drinking th ovaltine koi i bought for her also, worth th wait! :D and i saw her leg still blueblack, hope it recovers soon! hmmmmmm so long never see so many many many many ppl also ! tskkkkkkk . then...today at skates like didnt do much (once again) , just ollied. damn i wan jump higher siaaa. hmm. ohya haikel was at skates today also...hmm..joey came also..and..i dont rmbr anyt else. end up i left early(again) at like 930. sighs. then yup went home, reached before 11. hehe dad good mood, went to sleep early :} then.. now thinking what gems to take. fuck sia. its damn hard to choose.
I CANT HELP BUT REPEAT THIS. ANOTHER 24HOURS MORE AND J's BACK IN S'PORE :D

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Bukit Timah.
Thursday, October 7, 2010, 7:31 PM






once again. photography road trip. im starting to get car sick sia. no more road trips! omg . tmr is only skates mannnnn . like so fucking long never go. i forever no improvement sia . ohwell. then ya today went around bukit timah, nassim road, holland road, sixth avenue, etc. lah.th houses are all fucking huge. omg i cant wait to have island creamery with J when he gets back ^^ . then.. eventually slacked at th rail mall's coffeebean. drank hot choc (L) then.. bought baguette back cos mum cooked curry . yup. and...thats all ahha! cant wait for skates tmr ~

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why my dad change his mind :(
Wednesday, October 6, 2010, 7:45 PM







another photography day out with dad! woke up at like 8AM . KNN. hahahahahaa went to toapayoh early in the morning with a headache. tskkkkk . then.. went to eat lor mee :D then..went to pray my ahgong..then left already. then head offffffffffffff. at first went to adams rd..went to i dunno what road to so many road i see until blur. he brought me to his old ex-kampong house..which is located right beside a cemetry! creepy much :/ lucky is in th car hahahhaa. then..took photos and once again cant upload alot cos th file fucking big. then.. went around see houses.. then he brought me see ang moh chu ( ang moh houses = damn fucking big and old houses of british/austrailian/newzealand etc. ) then...he tell me he last time go with his brother to such places th rubbish bin collect old envelopes to "steal" the stamps and collect them. like cool uh listen to th story hahahhah. then he say when got angmoh come out they will run away... the rubbish collector come they will run to take th stamps from th rubbish bin.. and he say got once he collected one whole book of stamps itself ! hahaha thats apparently his hobby...sounds pretty cool luhhhhs. then.. after that ohya! i had headache then like want vomit.. he prepare plastic bag... buy me sourplum.. haha end up went to eat lunch then i ok alr :D . i ate my LU CHAR KWAYYYYY ( you tiao ) with coffeeeeee :D then bought pao and soonkueh bring go my another ahma th house for her. i went to visit her.. hahahahha!. then my dad left me there. talked to her... then she like so happy ^^ . then.. i see her communicate with th maid in malay, chinese, hokkien like damn funny. LOL. then eventually dad came to fetch me back. reached home then realised i left my phone at there. FUCKKKKKKK . then dad pissed sia. change his mind dont let me go skates alr. tskkkk . he say " where's your responsibility? " hais :( no phone, no skates fucked uppp . ohwell things got better anyway. i shall got skates on friday! then... ya he took out his stamps albums! then i went to take photographs of it. th lighting at home suckkkkkkkkkked :/ ohwell took a few...(nicer ones above!) then...ya now spamming twitter :D cos talking to my boy who's at korea! hahahahhaha feels so nice to feel kinda closer having "talked" for so long ^^ kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk im off to write my diary!

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books. you. books. you again.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010, 8:47 PM





yesterday went for a photography road trip with dad . i didnt expect it to be so enjoyable sia. hahaa. we headed to jalankayu from tampines. first stop was at there cos i told him in th morning "crap, i miss eating prata" . haha!. then ...headed around th north areas. went to seletar..went to sembawang th..some park/beach. then..went to yishun. wheeeeeeeew; i cant help but reminisce bout the past. went to..nee soon, khatib, admirality etc. then headed to woodlands there. then for th first time..saw what woodlands checkpoint and th causeway was like lol. then walked ...and was looking at johor.. feels..different. and...i felt a little weeeeeird and suddenly im missing J like crazy ahha!. then..ya headed back and saw monkeys! lol. took alot of photos sia. but i think th photos format too big siol. so far only managed to upload one image. prolly try uploading a few more.. hmm.
then..today..headed to tampines library with sis in the afternoon. went to read up on architecture. i dont know why but while browsing through th books at the book columns..i just missed J a little more again. lol. then..headed to find some murder book i usually read when i was in secondary school. couldnt remember the author..end up also couldnt find any of her books, only borrowed one architecture book.. hmm wonder if i will even read it at home haha. then headed to tampines mall cos we got really hungry. we bought chocolate swirl icecream from macs and fried squid and gyoza from oldchangkee. then headed to centurysquare comicconnection. missed J a little more again. ok its really crazy how looking at books actually made me miss J! then..bought a comic book and headed home already. back home..mum cooked 3 dishes! dad brought home KFC LOL. wth mannnnn i ate so much for dinner again. tsk srl gaining alot of weight. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk i neeed to exercise!.

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time away from my boy, now im thinking back into history again.
Saturday, October 2, 2010, 1:42 PM

so its been 2 days without J. sighs. i do miss that silly boy . but ive been thinking bout something else lately. i dont know what to do bout it. im thinking back into th past. my dreams. its like they're trying to tell me something . but i cant figure out what.
ive been dreaming bout someone i dont want to think about anymore. but th thing is that person has already stepped into my life. that person was in my life for 3 years. now seeing whats happening to him is making me feel guilty of what ive been doing.all i did was try. i dont know if what im doing is better for us or making it worst. althuogh i know i have gotten that person out of my mind for quite some time already, i can feel that that person is the reason im holdi ng back.I want to tell you not to visit my blog anymore. but i know im lying. i know im selfish. but i dont want you out of my life. you made me feel that th times we spent together were like a dream.

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