dizzy dreamer 〆
Stressed, go high. High finish, its back to misery.
Thursday, May 27, 2010, 1:01 AM
i need you so much, dont you see it at all?morning everything got so fucked up. i dunno wth i doing i just broke down and took my phone and dialled your number. you didnt pick up, i guess i forgot u had school. then u messaged me a "Wat." ouch. then hais. i forgot. we're jus friends. how th hell can i rely and need you th way i do still? i cant face you as a friend. im trying. im trying so damned hard. i dunno wtf i doing. im trying damn hard to forget you and get you out of my life, yet at th same time, my heart's forcing me to keep you inside. everything's going crazy. my projects and stuffs giving me a hard time. went to relax awhile i guess. i dunno wth happen i just got really high. thats what my friends said apparently,i just got really retarded. i kept laughing and smiling. my face turned red or smt. i dunno wth happen. dunno if thats th real me or what sia. but at least at that moment, th feeling kind of shiok. then went to skateboard. i wanna hurry get used to it, then can use it for relaxation more. wanna learn some stunts and get myself injured. friends say im turning masochistic , i dunno th spelling or wtv la. heck. is simply feeling better when i hurt myself, and feeling so cos i think i deserve feeling th pain. ah wtv. then ya went home, mum waited. hais. sorry. felt so rude to wrong person. should have been to my dad. aiya i duno la. in some way its weird, cos th whole timing although i was feeling pissed bout my dad's overprotectiveness and unreasonableness, i realised i was talking alot bout th happy moments i have with my family. its kinda weird, i guess i do love them alot though we quarrel alot. i just hope somehow, everything'd get better. i miss you.
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hello i am qy 〆 ヒスイ sleep paralysis, wretches & sketches しめ
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