dizzy dreamer 〆
wtf do you want! im already 17 and this never stops.
Monday, April 12, 2010, 5:36 PM
this happened yesterday, when i realise how wrong i was for thinking that i didnt have to go through this same shit again when i go poly. ended up. i figured out that, this would never stop. it'd forever be this way. fuck la. im already seventeen. you still have to control so many things? somemore, over a simple thing. such as my attire? fuck la. its not like i wear till very sexy want reveal to others anything. wtf la. i wan wear simple and neat, you also not happy. want me wear clothing that's so fucking not me. how th hell you want me to explain then you'd understand sia. this is also not th only thing that you dont understand. previous few days when i went out. i went to try on all kinds of jeans you want me to try on. i go try try try. i try like siao also i dont like sia. its just. not me. then aiya left sunday. so go together again . of all place. go till junction8. i seriously dont think got enough shops to search for th stupid jeans you want me to wear, why th fuck cant i just wear skinnies?! will die ah walao. go walk th whole area, i really cant find anything suitable. u show some fucked up face. walao. then finally i give up. i just go try th jeans at levis. you dont even bother come in see. fuck la. mum come in see. then i just buay tahan both yours and mum's attitude. fuck la. so i just shout lo. wear th stupid jeans u want me wear. and shout how much i dislike it. how much its so fucking not me. why th fuck cant you understand? why th fuck must i be someone not myself?! my hair what style also want control. i wear what clothing also want bother. you dont like me wear shorts. dont know what shit. then aiya. i go that levis store. finally found a pants that i like which is 3quarters. i've been searching for it for quite some time. cos its something which suits me abit here and you both there. its light denim. with a few not-so-obvious studs. i want, you say no. you dont allow wear shorts, i want 3quarters. you also not happy. fuck la. i wear skinnies, u wan those jeans which is ur type. not mine!. urgh!. aiya dunno la . i wait inside th shop go try all th jeans type sia. i think th shop th ppl also feel irritated. then eventually i still cant find a jeans which is "normal" to you. dont know why u cant understand. to me, skinnies is normal jeans. those other kinds, is not. urgh!. dunno wtf la. then i wait inside th shop for u see th 3quarters. then u dont want bother to see at all. fuck la. pissed sia. everything got so fucking fucked up la. walan eh. u say i spent how much on th jeans also nevermind, so ya now get one 129bucks one u not happy. fuck la. go poly. still gie me stupid rules , like no shorts. wtf? its not like i will wear 24/7 . you say in case need go office or what thing need presentable, its not like it'll be everyday right. weather so hot. wear shorts once in a while cannot meh?! wtf la. even 3quarters also cant. wtf? i want wear tights with my jeanskirt. you say go buy longer skirt. no tights. wtf? aiya dont know la. previously want me cut my hair till now so short. i alr force myself to. now my fringe long, also want me cut. wtf la. i feel like home like school sia. wtf. control so much. i want dye hair, now i go poly can, yet u dont allow. then aiya sua. i want my own hairstyle you also want control. wtf la. cant you just suit me abit? or at least understand? go school leh . whole day say i wear fashion. fashion your head la. i wear simple you also not happy. go school is to study then i want war comfortable. like this you also not happy. tomorrow orientation. i want either wear shorts or at th most 3quarters. you keep say go school no short, only long pants or skirts. i want wear skirts with tights, you say fashion? wtf ? i wear till so normal and simple already leh . walao eh. go orientation later got games, then u want me wear long pants sweat myself out? wtf la. so simple logic also cant understand. fuck la. havent start poly already got so much problem. start poly already, then if you want control clothing. then i think i no need attend school already la. i dont want to spend another 3 years going through th same old shit. somemore, i dont think this will be th only problem. there's still so much more. later go overseas or whatsoever, you will again sure got problem with it. so fucking dont trust me. another thing, sure come out as problem again. M. hais. its not like i want to you both bout it lo please. im dying to tell you about us. 3 fucking years and you both still havent learnt anything. it really sucks to not be able to keep this thing open. i really wished i could let you know how happy we are together. fuck la. aiya dont know la. i really dont know how much more my life's gonna get fucked up by you both. dad, mum. why th fuck cant you just trust me and try to understand!.Labels: i really cant help but agreeing, its forever this fucked up.
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