dizzy dreamer 〆
i said, i will forget you. i lied.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010, 11:04 PM
hais. last time super love night time before i sleep. cause i cant stop thinking bout you,and i feel happy cause i will think alot about all th moments we had, and..is like i will feel excited and keep wondering if i will dream about you when i sleep. or not is how long will i need to wait to call you up to chat and talk happily till we feel sleepy then sleep.
now, when i feel that way. i end up feeling so much pain instead, cos' i know i have to force myself to stop feeling that way . its so painful every single night...cant sleep cant sleep...
my eyebags..getting really bad ...and that first night, i couldnt get use to not waiting up, or not waking up to call you. i hesitate every single night. i wished i could just call you, and hear your voice, or at least feel your presence when im on th phone with you. but every single time i have to hold myself back, cause i know, i'd be selfish if i did that again . hais. every single day is so damn suffering. i go anywhere, i do any sort of things. i see any little details. think bout any stuffs, i will think of you. and i end up missing you like hell and have to force myself to occupy myself with things. hais. now no work, nothing to occupy, end up i go continue my jap lesson and i everyday think bout you cos the place itself reminded me of you. hais. at least i can occupy myself for 3hrs a day . although i spent th other 7/8 of th day thinking of you. hais.
Labels: every single day im in pain 'cause i cant forget you at all.
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