dizzy dreamer 〆
Sunday, November 29, 2009, 4:05 PM
i wished more than anything,to be with you .
but i know...
now at this age..
there's no way im going..to ..be..able to have th freedom to be with you .
my parents...wont approve..of any relationship..
is ..not i dont..want...
and..ask you dont smoke...
is cos..you smoking..not only affects you..but me..but...everyone around you...
you smoke..than....what if...if....really...kena..then.....
then... how ...
even you want to carry on to ...live ..with th one you treasure...then..
you...also cannot..you smoke....you're hurting...not just yourself...
there's nothing..i can do ..now ..
moreover..
ive..felt useless enough...i couldnt..even stop...you..from smoking..
i cant..do anything..
i have..no right..at all...to ask you to stay..
if you...cant stand..carrying on...this way...
i wont...ask you...to stay...
cos i know....im..being..selfish...that way..
you could have just forgotten about me long ago...
but ...yet....you...stayed..on.......
its....long.. enough...
i..understand.....
since.....you say......you find ...no point... in...continuing to ..carry on..
its...suffering...for you...too...
i caused...you...to drag....this...long enough....
im not...worthy..of you...
i dont..deserve....to...make you.....suffer...and..continue...
i never should....have...entered...your life..
i wish...we could..pull through...but....
i understand.....i should...let..you..go..
you deserve someone better...
someone....whom you can go out happily together....
without having..to worry....bout whether...there's any...risk...
that...whether..after meeting...
must..wait till how long...then can see each other again...
that....you can meet...every single day...
that...you can have th freedom to be with...
that you can really be happy together...
that..that...
you can openly be together with....
i know...i shouldnt... be holding you back...
you say....wait..till you come back s'pore...then..see how..again...
its...okay..dont have...to..
cos...i think....th only way....for you...to not....suffer anymore...
is..to forget ...bout this relationship....
to forget...bout us...
i ....wont have....th courage....to say this...to you...face to face....so...
when you see this....maybe ....you'll know....
i...i...im sorry..i couldnt ..do anything..
i wish...i could say.....to ask to meet again...if we have th fate...to see..
each other.. again..next time..next life...
but..no..i....dont..want..to...cause..you..any more...pain..
everytime...is like that....if really...forever...also this way...
then.....i dont...want..you..to be..th one..to have to suffer..again..
i..dont want...to enter...your life.. and...ruin it again..
&...i can promise you, i will treasure every single one of th memories i have with you, &..thank you..for letting us meet, for i will never regret..having known you..for...you were th one..who taught me ..what love is..=)
so..
marcus, please forget.....me.
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