dizzy dreamer 〆
Friday, November 27, 2009, 8:25 PM
hmm, well .. to that friend, who gave me th advice...ya i tried, but sorry apparently, she still not happy.
she thinks i never try, so whatever lo .
th posts, and everything. dont know bah .
as i said, to you, i know i did it out of anger.
but apparently, now.
she did not, do it out of anger,
cos when she saying all this, she is happy happy one.
means, she means every word.
to that friend, you see alr, so. ya.
as i said, there's no way i can accept th fact that everything's gonna be okay anymore.
doesnt seem like she's unhappy bout what is happening,
i guess she is happy with what's happening now.
she has called upon her friends,
to say everything to,
so i have nothing to say.
as that friend has said, to everything, there is two sides,
but as i see now,
all of which, is not anymore .
its still a lie,
there's still a mask.
she's happy im this miserable.
so, ya so it shall be .
i have only one thing to ask of those who know me,
to trust me for who they know i am .
anything else, ive got nothing to comment.
J, i know you can make one's life hell if u want to,
so if this is what's making you happy. so be it.
btw, th posts, if u want say is dedicated to you..is not exactly.
but this blog, mainly is for me say things out, to express my feelings,
whether im angry, or sad, or disappointed, or happy or whatsoever.
i only know,
i have to apologise for the words on th prev posts, they were quite mean when i saw it again.
however, if you think im saying this out to pretend or to i dont know whatever you think,
then i'll only say, i was stupid to have apologised to you,
for which, you are not worthy of my apology .
because, till now, part of me still wish everything's gona be okay.
although i know im stupid to be thinking this way .
and, yea. you're lucky to have your friends always beside you,
so maybe yea, you probably treasure them more than what i am capable of.
but stil there's one thing im pissed about,
for which.. i dont think, this is a joke .
if you think it is, i doubt our friendship meant anything to you,
cos you apparently seem happy that this is happening.
guess you are laughing at my misery now huh? .
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